Not feeling myself

It started on Tuesday – I was okay, I did my morning college routine, left, but when I got about half way there, it’s like I changed.

I didn’t feel comfortable in my own skin, I didn’t look like myself in any reflection, it’s like all my thoughts weren’t my own. At one point I got irrationally angry (I am aware now that it is irrational) at a complete stranger because of the way she was walking and the shoes she had chosen to wear.

I was concerned about this reaction and how I could rationalise doing something about it. So I just turned around and went straight home again.

It was a horribly bizarre experience

The only problem is that the feelings have continued all throughout the week. I just haven’t felt right. Like nothing I am doing is of my own accord.

It’s so difficult to explain without sounding crazy, but it’s now Thursday night and the feelings haven’t gone. I don’t know if I should be concerned or worried.

It’s all so unusual to me. 

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It’s been a few days – a small update¬†

Well,

I passed my history exam. All the comments made were about where I knew I had messed up. So .. Score!

During the exam itself, I ended up in a smaller room with just 3 other people, my anxiety caused me to freak out so much that I ended up in the personal tutors office, say on the floor. It was definitely the most interesting exam I have taken for that reason alone.

I am on half term now though. A nice week off but I am going to use it to revise…in theory.

And lastly, I haven’t felt like myself this week. And by this, I mean I have felt like a different person separate to me. I think more of an explanation would be better in a post of its own.